It's cheaper than therapy!

Ok. I was once told by a pastor that I had amazing self insight. That I knew myself very well... so well that he wondered if I'd ever been in therapy. I haven't, but it occurred to me that the reason I've never needed it was because of my ability to examine myself. And others, for that matter, but for this blog I'm more concerned with my own state of being.

Lately I've been feeling pushed down. Not depressed... just pressed. I think I have way too many expectations of perfection from myself and others. I get stuck at times with this... if I can't do it or have it perfectly, then I won't do it or don't want it. Can't do the dishes exactly how I want to because I don't have enough time? Solution: don't do the dishes. Toys disorganized and pieces of toys not collected together? Solution: leave the toys on the floor, all over the house. Don't have time to really put myself together and look very nice? Solution: you're lucky if I take a shower.

Apparently, if I can't have it perfect... then I just leave it the way it is. Even if I could improve upon it slightly with a little work. This is something I definitely need to work on. Perfection is unattainable... I am human and will never be perfect. But I can always improve. I just need to accept that my best is good enough.